Just because of the pure fact that it’s what I grew up watching and it is PURE CLASS ANYWAY… It’d be unfair for this new film to just overhaul those films, those great films.
I am sure it’ll be great though and I am looking forward to it.
So, I had an English exam today and on account of my diagnostic I managed to get a room on my own to do it. I was all prepared, honestly, I was ready.
As soon as I sat down I got so overwhelmed and I can’t even remember what happened to me in the space of time where I got in and left…
It happens to me all the time, when I panic or am in an awkward situation/Can’t do something (If someone asks me about my future it happens for example) my brain switches off and it takes so long for me to regain the power to control myself. It’s like I have been removed from my body and I am a whole new person… There is so many things I could write to make you understand me more, my split personalities… What goes on inside my head, the bad side and the good side taking control, bad side usually wins.
I couldn’t breath, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t see… Everything I had written meant nothing, it made no sense and then everything started to go black and patchy and I found myself 1 hour later in my dads car, everything from today is a blur… But, no I didn’t faint it’s just I can’t remember. Anxiety is really taking it’s toll on me.
If I can’t do the exams then what is the point in going to school? Being in a room FULL of people would be about 1000x worse, I’ve tried it. I guess I’ll just have to do them all next year and hope that I am better… That this pain, is all gone. I doubt it though, I’ve been waiting 7 years and… I am still waiting.
This is the worst episode of this kind of thing I have EVER had… I am officially worried.
Basically they said that I have definitely got Depression, Anxiety and Emotional Irregularity. But, they also think I might have a disorder such as Schizophrenia, Bipolar and/or anything like that… They need to investigate more into it to find out because they said it’s quite hard. Basically, I am a messed up kid so it’s hard to figure it out.
I am being referred to about 10 more people, after all this time finally, some news. 7 years… and even all of my life.
I don’t know whether I am happy or sad to have got this diagnostic because knowing is a benefit but a negative is how hard it is to treat and so many others.
When I find out more I will let you know… Schizophrenia and Bipolar are highly likely apparently, that I am worried and unhappy about.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMr0KcklxEI&feature=player_embedded - Drogba’s message to the fans…
And, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=284tIZfd3cs&feature=relmfu - His final interview..
#CFC #DROGBA #ThanksDrogba
:’( Still saddened by the news.
Sitting on a bench praying to god asking if he will give me the strength to kill myself. I cant do this anymore, god made me a test to see how much he can fuck my life up before I want to die, WELL LOOKY HERE MATE I WANT TO FUCKING DIE AND HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS 7! LET ME GO. You gave me a test, I failed, now can I go… Dont even care what people think about me sitting here. I cant go home, not yet.
I could write a massive essay about how much I want Drogba to stay and why but I guess I cant. I’ll honestly be distraught when he leaves.
Nothing I say, whether it is on Facebook, Twitter or Tumblr will ever express the difficulty I am having in coming to terms and accepting the fact that Drogba is actually leaving. Some criticize him but I class him as a role model to me. He has been such a fucking legend to our club and I will always be proud to say that he belonged to us and ruled English football one upon a time. #DrogbaCFCLegend #CFC #WeWantYouToStay
There is so much else I could say, but I just don’t have the energy. He will always be a Chelsea legend, he will always be one of my favourite players.
157 goals in 8 years, 3 Premier Leagues, 4 FA Cups, 2 Carling cups, ONE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE. Not to mention the 9 goals he scored in 9 finals… Including his fanatic record at Wembley… NOT INCLUDING PRE-SEASON! Won quite a few titles there!
WE LOVE YOU DROGBA, WE DO. WE LOVE YOU DROGBA, WE DO. WE LOVE YOU DROGBA, WE DO. OHHH, DROGBA WE LOVE YOU! #CFC #Legend #ThankyouDrogba #ThanksDrogba :’(
Ashley Cole, FUCKING WOW!
Didier Drogba should stay at Chelsea and your argument is invalid if you disagree. #HEISABLUE!
Lampard, BRILLIANT performance.
Petr Cech… Best goalkeeper in the world…
Oh my days, everyone, seriously did so fucking well… This is my dream come true, this is every Chelsea fan’s DREAM COME TRUE!
I am calm writing this but I am FUCKING BUZZIN’!!
GET IN THERE CHELSEA, CHAMPIONES CHAMPIONES OLE OLE OLE!
You all wrote us off EVERY STEP OF THE WAY and LOOK WHO’S LAUGHING NOW!!
CHELSEA CHELSEA CHELSEA CHELSEA
So much passion… SO MUCH.
#SUPPORTCHELSEANOMATTERWHATHAPPENS #WEDESERVEIT
